Saturday, May 30, 2009


It's 3.22 am, and here I am, just finished my Law assignment (actually duno if all correct, but after three weeks of slaving over it, I am done), and just the idea of rushing my CRM exam is enough to put me off least, until Saturday (which is tml, but is technically later in the day).

Just sitting here, reflecting on my past 12 weeks in my final sem, I've been through so many things, and felt too many emotions to count. It's like, I was going through an out-of-body experience sometimes, that I couldn't believe I'm actually going through this stage of my life. I've experienced some very low moments, but also managed to hit some high notes..

The coursework of my studies this time around was hell. And to think, it's not over yet..I still have three more weeks to go...maybe I'll blog about my uni life in later posts, but right now, it's not something I would look back on with a smile..

I guess it's safe to say that the lowest I've felt, is right here, right now.I don't know how to explain it, but stress, problems, all rushing towards me all at once coupled with insomnia is not a good feeling to be going through. But no matter what, I will make sure that I get through this, if not for myself, then for my family. They have invested heavily on me these three years, and I will not let them down, just because I can't handle the stress.

I will not repeat my blunder during SPM.

I will not let my problems affect me like how it did during STPM.

Looking back, I was not mature enough, and I have paid for it.

I'd like to say that I've grown up these past three years, and I am more mature now, I am a smarter person, and I can learn to put my problems aside, and concentrate on what is most important in my life right now.

*fingers crossed*

You know what, I agree with Aaron..sometimes it's just better to take some time out, give some time for selah..It relaxes you, you are able to focus more, and start not-so-anew, but good enough.

Or, if not, then have a good cry, and everything will feel better in the end (most of the time). It helps with insomnia too...


Arrancar said...

yeah take some time to chill. Things will work themselves out :D

choulyin.tan said...

thanks nick :) am really looking forwards to that final paper which will mark the end of my uni life :p