Tuesday, September 15, 2009

???

I dreamt of you last night. Which was weird. Because I seldom dream of people I dun usually have deep feelings for. Which got me thinking. Do I REALLY have deeper feelings for you than I care to recognise? Which is insane. Because we have never been THAT close. We dun even chat on MSN all the time. The weirdest thing would be the content of the said dream.

But things change. We become different people. We grow up. We develop feelings. From strangers. To acquaintances. To friends. To more than friends? Who knows, maybe.

This is weirding me out. Too much thinking sometimes makes things into more than what they actually are. Especially after too many events happening when I was in KL. Maybe I am just settling down into the comfort of being home again. Which stirs up all sorts of feelings. Good, bad, neutral.

Methinks some time for self reflection is required in my current situation. Will have to evaluate the events in KL, the things happening here, the ones that are about to happen, and sort it all out once and for all. Sometimes I get the feeling that I'm not good enough. That no matter how hard I try, I can never be as good as the other girl. That there will always be something that I lack that she doesn't. -.-" darn it.

Meanwhile, I'm going to graduate ya'll!!! :D will be trying out my regalia tomorrow morning, and after that heading to meet the new LSS boys in school :)

Oh and prom is in two weeks, and I have my dress and date d :)

goodness, I am so random -.-"

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