Reflection...

It's 3.22 am, and here I am, just finished my Law assignment (actually duno if all correct, but after three weeks of slaving over it, I am done), and just the idea of rushing my CRM exam is enough to put me off it..at least, until Saturday (which is tml, but is technically later in the day).

Just sitting here, reflecting on my past 12 weeks in my final sem, I've been through so many things, and felt too many emotions to count. It's like, I was going through an out-of-body experience sometimes, that I couldn't believe I'm actually going through this stage of my life. I've experienced some very low moments, but also managed to hit some high notes..

The coursework of my studies this time around was hell. And to think, it's not over yet..I still have three more weeks to go...maybe I'll blog about my uni life in later posts, but right now, it's not something I would look back on with a smile..

I guess it's safe to say that the lowest I've felt, is right here, right now.I don't know how to explain it, but stress, problems, all rushing towards me all at once coupled with insomnia is not a good feeling to be going through. But no matter what, I will make sure that I get through this, if not for myself, then for my family. They have invested heavily on me these three years, and I will not let them down, just because I can't handle the stress.

I will not repeat my blunder during SPM.

I will not let my problems affect me like how it did during STPM.

Looking back, I was not mature enough, and I have paid for it.

I'd like to say that I've grown up these past three years, and I am more mature now, I am a smarter person, and I can learn to put my problems aside, and concentrate on what is most important in my life right now.

*fingers crossed*

You know what, I agree with Aaron..sometimes it's just better to take some time out, give some time for selah..It relaxes you, you are able to focus more, and start not-so-anew, but good enough.

Or, if not, then have a good cry, and everything will feel better in the end (most of the time). It helps with insomnia too...

To Make You Feel My Love - Garth Brooks

Originally sang by Garth Brooks, and re-sung by Kris Allen on American Idol 2009


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When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rollin' sea
Down on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
But you ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
I know there's nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love

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I knew it was too good to be true....it was.

I thought I finally found it.....I didn't.

I knew this part would always be hardest....it still is.

If I could turn back time...I would.

If I could make it better....I would.

If I could forget it...I would.
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But I couldn't, I can't, and I don't know if I could...

One month

In exactly one month's time, I will finish my final semester.

In one month's time (or thereabouts), I will venture out into the working world, getting a feel of what it's really like out there.

In one month's time, I will finish my eighteen years of studies. (Study for my professional papers count ka?? if they count, then sadly, haven finish my studies yet T.T)

In one month's time, I will not have anymore assignments to worry about.

In one month's time, I will be lounging at home, without a care in the world.

In one month's time, I will be keeping all my uni books, packing them up into boxes, keeping the important ones, and selling off the ones I don't need anymore.

In one month's time, I will be watching all the backlogged Heroes, House, How I Met Your Mother, Brothers and Sisters, and all those movies I've not had a chance to watch during the entire sem :D

In one month's time, I will be out painting the town red, celebrating the end of my Swinburne life, and starting another alumni life.
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Lol, I only have to survive this one more month....and then it's a whole new chapter in my life ^^


P/S: side note --> he's so cute la.. *hamfuk-ness* :p

Southern Regionals :D

So, two weeks ago, was the Southern Regionals la..hehe

My laptop dieded, so couldn't send a post of support here..haha...but now that I have access to Internet, I guess I'd better do something about it :p

To the mighty co-chairs, Aaron, Rinesh and Karthik, I'm sure you both did a superb job in organising it la :D So, definitely to thumbs up to you guys!!!

To the others who have contributed so much to making it a success, these mighty co-chairs wouldn't have managed to do it without your help!!!! :D

hehe :D

Have a great weekend everyone!!

lol, now I can't wait for Sarawak Regionals to come up...in one month's time...really need to recharge...