With 2010 coming to a close and Christmas just around the corner, many people are looking back, reminiscing about what was, is, and will be. I, am not an exception.
Of course, in many ways, even before the year comes to a close, I have thought, pondered, wondered, reflected, call it what you will. Many thoughts, some good, some bad, some naughty, some nice.
How fast time flies…yet another year has passed, and yet, I still feel like I have not done as much as I had set out to do for 2010. Now, there is barely a fortnight to go before 2010 bows out and welcomes 2011, and I have the little inkling of regret that I should have done something more.
While I still feel like I have not done enough, after a round of reflections, I have gone to thinking that quite a lot has also happened :p
Careerwise, I have had a paradigm shift. I went from being an auditor to something totally non-related to figures at all. In so doing, I have managed to find myself a little bit more in the process, and have made a few great friends in the form of my colleagues.
I found out my strengths, weaknesses, and other crazier side. I found out what I was capable of, and I found out a little more on what I need to work on. I found a group of people I am proud to call my colleagues, and though sometimes there might be tension all around, we all know how to keep it professional, and leave business with business, and pleasure with pleasure.
On the personal relationships front, my godfamily has gotten yet wider.
Nopes, I’m not complaining. Quite the contrary I guess, it gives me more room to give, and to receive. I am spending more time with my sister, and I am starting to appreciate my parents more. Not to say that I don’t appreciate them before, but for the past one year that I’ve been here, it’s just a different feeling and it puts a lot of things in perspective.
You come to appreciate the little things that you have taken for granted, and learn new skills along the way
The important part for me, is to hold on to what is dear to me, and one of those things is my circle of friends in Kuching that I have only met a handful of times when I’m back there.
I’m glad that even though I’m far away from them, I still manage to keep my closeness with them, and if there ever were truer friends, it would definitely have to be them.
People always say, even though you think you have grown enough, there will still be room to grow and expand your wings. While I still have to work very hard to scale greater heights, I feel that it is a price that I am willing to pay, to get me closer to my ultimate ambition :) Not many know what it is, but for those who do, I thank you for always putting things into perspective for me
One very integral part of my life would be my lasallian family. Having just concluded the 20th National Lasallian Leaders’ Convention in Ipoh not too long ago, I am continually amazed by the fact that there are so many people out there who are willing to put aside their time for a cause they believe in. Not only my lasallian counterparts, but also to the other communities and societies out there who aim at making a difference in the lives of other people.
For me, it’s my lasallian family. I have learnt so much from them, old and young, and I believe that my journey in this is yet to end. The tricky part is to learn to juggle between this and work, but I firmly believe that if you have your priorities right, this is not a problem. This is work I look forward to doing, as I’m constantly surrounded by positive energy whenever I go for these activities.
Granted, it’s hard work too, but the sense of accomplishment and satisfaction you get when you manage to complete something is priceless and can’t be found anywhere else.
My own process in this journey started 6 years ago, and it has shown no signs of slowing down since. Being in this for half a decade, I find that I still have lots more to learn, and much more room to grow. With all the awesome people beside me, I have no doubt that I will continue to be a better person, and mature in the process.
Sometimes I wonder if things will be different if I had more of a social life. But then again, while there’s not much of a social life for me at this juncture, I realize that I have a lot of my plate at the moment. I don’t have many social friends that I meet to go to bars and clubs, but that’s fine with me.
I’m content to just sit at a mamak stall with a close friend, drinking teh tarik kurang manis and chatting the night away. Sometimes people ask me why I don’t go to these places, and I reply, “to each his own.”
So completes my short reflection for 2010. Am abit apprehensive to continue to reflect..if I do, I don't think I will even catch my 40 winks ;p
for the handsome boy that brightens up my life each day with his lame jokes and perasan-ness