Saturday, February 20, 2010

Post CNY holidays

It's 2:20am, and here I am, sitting down in my room, blogging. lol. There's a torrential downpour outside, and while I am thinking I might be sleep deprived, I feel a sudden inspiration, so here I am, sitting in front of my dad's lappie, happily typing away, whilst msn-ing a few people :p

I'll be boarding my flight back to KL tomoro, and this trip has left me with mixed feelings. Eagerness to get back to KL (somewhat), but reluctance, because I do not know when I'll be seeing my beloved friends again..

I would say that my trip back this time around has been a pretty worthwhile one for me, as I have tried to make every effort possible to try to meet up with everyone that I can, hoping that I didn't miss anyone out. I do not know when I'll be coming back to Kch again, so these memories that I've made, I will take with me all the way til the next time I come back again...

Ron and Lil, you guys have made it all the more fun :D I forgot how I can just sit and chat with you both and the time just seem to fly by. I missed the times we can just sit together, and not having to say a single word, but we all understand each other perfectly. I missed the times we can just everyone talk altogether with barely a coherent logic to our sentences, but all three of us understands everything perfectly. I missed the times we can finish each others' thoughts, and smile even when everyone else doesn't seem to get it. I guess the most important is, I've missed the both of you T.T

Ivor, Sha, Ren, Kyra, Tiing, Vince, thanks for the lovely time :D It was super fun hanging out with you all, learning new things, sharing new experiences, and just being with a younger (though not much younger than me) crowd :p hehehe....and yes Ivor, I think if you work out, you'll be hot again..haha..I'll miss hanging out with you all!!!

The CPAASC gang, it was a great nine hours spent visiting with you all, meeting the new committee, and it's very heartening to see the bond that has already been formed by all of you on such little time that you all had. It made me feel young again..hehe...and you know what, I have faith in this committee, because I can see that every single one of you have different things that you bring to the table, and under Edina, you're all bound to shine and live up to your fullest potential ;) That's the past prez speaking, and I'm sure you'll all continue to make me proud :D

Lovena, Nicky, Jon Wong, Pn Stella, Pat, Salim, and all the other Lasallians that I forgot to mention, this trip back has opened my eyes to current events :p and also, have faith. :D There are still many things left to discover, and who knows, the people who have let you down might surprise you in the end, so never ever fail to always see the bright side of things, because you never know when you might be pleasantly surprised :D

Joanna, CS, it was fun having lunch with you, and funny to hear you both recount the happenings in your workplace :p So many of the things you shared with me are similar to what I have experienced, and what can I say, it's an occupational hazard I guess :p hehe

Funnily enough, the past week has gotten me thinking about so many things, most importantly, the happenings in my life currently. Do I let go of the animosity, and try to see the good things that other people have to offer, or do I hang on to that negative energy, and let it eat me up inside? Of course, the former would have to be the obvious choice..but somehow it's always harder to let it go, especially when that hate has already taken root in your heart. Every single time it boils up inside, I have to remind myself that it's not worth it, and in the end, that person will get it coming to him..or her :p

Do I let go of that emotion, when it's obvious that nothing will come out of it? my extended family says otherwise, to let time goes, and see how it close friends say just let it go, as it's not something that's gonna be worth it. hmm....super confused, but still at a loss. Should I tell, and risk rejection, or just clam up and let nature takes its course (with maybe a less than desirable outcome)?

All in all, a totally eventful week for me ;)

On a totally random note, it seems that I seem to suddenly have a liking for "The Truth" by Kris's that elephant in the room I tell you -.-"

The pictures I have selected for this post is taking FOREVER to load -.-" so maybe I'll put them up in the next post...or you can just view them on Fb :p

Sunday, February 14, 2010


May the year of the tiger brings you more wealth, prosperity, love, money, happiness, laughter, joy, wisdom, understanding, kinship, and love :D

And for those out there who has a loved one, happy Valentine's day to you as well, because you don't need only a husband or boyfriend to celebrate Valentine's day. It is a day for everyone who has a loved one, and that pretty much means everyone ;)

So may you have a great lunar 2010!!!

Love you all :)

Friday, February 12, 2010

I'm supposed to feel better but I don't.

I'm supposed to let it go but I don't think I can.

I'm supposed to let it all out but I don't know if I am capable of that.

I'm supposed to let it heal...

.....but can I?

Send me all your angels tonight
I'm barely hanging on the edge of lonely
Trying to turn this all around before I
Hit the ground and end up face down

Send me all your angels now....

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

It hurts every time you can't seem to be bothered to try to understand me.

I should get used to it by now..

And I should not be bothered as well

But it still hurts every time


I should stay away from you. I should stop everything. Being near you is darn near cancerous.


Found this website from Siew Wei. Lol, ter-sikit jiwang after reading it, but it only made me realise that even though people may walk in and out of your life, making you smile, or cry, or smash your heart into a thousand pieces, the most important and best thing that you can do for yourself, is to pick yourself up and move on. Don't let it affect you too much, but always remember that even through the worst storms, the sun will always come shining through :)


It seems lately that you've become an even bigger part of me.

There's a difference between giving up and letting go. Giving up is sacrificing what was rightfully yours, and letting go is forgetting what never was.

Sometimes when you look back on a relationship, you realize it wasn't all you thought it was. Someone walked into your life, you fell in love, or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation. Or maybe it was a brief moment of insanity.

I want people to feel an immediate happiness and cheerfulness when they are around me, to make a difference in someone’s life. I want to make an impression in someone’s life, so that even though I may be delicate and fragile, my footprints are permanent within the hearts of the ones I’ve touched.

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and changing a soul. And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises. And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead… and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. So you plant your own garden instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong and that you really do have worth… and with every goodbye, you learn.

I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go. It's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have.

One day you’re going to want that girl. That girl who knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be perfect for you. The girl who believed the scraps of you she was given were worth it, because something was better than nothing. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths, that girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it. That girl who saw past your pretty eyes and treasured parts of you that no one else has ever appreciated. The girl who realizes she may never have your heart, but will carry the image of you in hers forever. The girl who should have you, but doesn’t even though she deserves it.

I don't know whats worse: not being able to tell you how I feel, or knowing you'll never feel the same.

There’s no such thing as a perfect ending. A relationship that is perfect, wouldn't end.

Monday, February 08, 2010


It started slow, and ended slow.


Thank you everyone who wished me happy birthday, be it through SMS's, Facebook, MSN, or calls. I appreciated every single one of your well wishes :D I truly felt loved, and you are all awesome people :D

I'm writing this in the morning after my birthday (when I should actually be finishing up my work) :p and I am personally really touched by your wishes.

I started the day by getting calls from my parents, from over yonder South China Sea... I can't wait to go back for CNY!!!

Had a movie marathon with Carrine and my sailou, with Jas joining in once in a while before hurrying off to look after a sick food-poisoned Ron (hope you're feeling better Ron :))

Received presents from my extended family, after I explicitly told them not to :p Thanks saimui, adik, and sailou for the bag :D I really loved it ^^

Thanks also to the uber cute Carrine for the rubiks cube :D I hope to master it one day ;)

Thanks to Shaun for the notepad from CIMB :p edition wan, so yea, ok la, will treasure it.. :p

Thanks Yew for the daily advice mug..I'll try to make it a point to spin and turn and point to one advice at least once a week :p

Thanks Yee and Alex for the Benjamins :p I dun think I'll ever use it..hehe

Had breakfast with Carrine and sailou before I sent them off on their back to Melaka, one back to BB :p

Came back to do laundry, then some work at home...

Left home for lunch with Raam and Secret Recipe :p lol...chatted till forgot the time -.-"

Left lunch and went to office to get some work done..

Left work and went to Pyramid to meet that little annoying brat :p hehehehehe (you know I still love you)

Sushi King for dinner with my beloved family :D I *heart* you all!!!!

Came back home, rested fifteen minutes...

Left home to meet Shaun for supper...and chatted till forgot the time again :p

Came back, and doing work, blogging, and staying awake til 4am cos scared later cannot wake up :p

All in all, a day well spent for this year 2010. :)

Random stuff that happened and talked and thought about:

*There is a difference between loneliness and solitude.

*No matter how learned you think you are, there are bound to be someone more learned than you.

*I wana go watch Kris Allen....but I have to go Johor tml morning (this morning, actually, but...yea, whatever -.-")

*Sat and watched Shaun score tickets to the Kris Allen concert :p

*No matter how much you think you know a person, you will never fully know a person 100%.

*If I had to choose between my sister and Kris Allen, I will pick my sister. :D

*It's actually very entertaining to hear someone recount their childhood memories :) *cili padi* still puts a smile on my face when I think about it :p

*God gave me a birthday present too. RM5 ;)

*Experienced a comfortable silence with someone. That comfortable silence that's ever so elusive, and only exists only with people who are accepting of each other. Lol...but tak tau that person felt it or not :/

*Yes, I can tell you everything. You're one of the few I can really open up to and not worry about being judged, and I really mean it when I say, thank God for you ;) *hugs*muaks*

Saturday, February 06, 2010

Love =)

I read my sister's blog, and I miss her already T.T

Sometimes in life, you have to be parted from the people you love. But, that doesn't mean you don't still love them.

Sometimes in life, you argue with the one you love. But, that doesn't mean you don't still love them.

Sometimes in life, no matter how hard it is, you let them make their own mistakes, because that's the only way they'll learn. But, that doesn't mean you don't still love them.

Sometimes in life, you don't listen to the ones that give you advice because you feel they're overreacting. But, that doesn't mean you don't still love them.

Sometimes in life, you act differently towards someone who held that place in your heart. But, that doesn't mean you don't still love them.

Sometimes in life, you neglect the people who are far away. But, that doesn't mean you don't still love them.

Sometimes in life, the ones you love push you away. But, that doesn't mean they don't still love you.

Sometimes in life, the ones you love do not want to have anything to do with you. But, that doesn't mean they don't still love you.

Sometimes in life, the ones you love hurt you so deeply you felt you could never heal. But, that doesn't mean they don't still love you.

Sometimes in life, the ones you love act like they didn't care. But, that doesn't mean they don't still love you.

Sometimes in life, the ones you love never call or sms. But, that doesn't mean they don't still love you.

Sometimes in life, the ones you love don't see you all the time. But, that doesn't mean they don't still love you.








Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want him/her to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all he/she has.

To my loved ones, I'm sorry if I have neglected or hurt you in any way. I never meant to do that. I still love you. =)

Side note:
I found this phrase written on a Valentine's Day card that customers hung outside the Curve:

"To: Ayah in Bandung.

Even if I don't pick up the phone, it doesn't mean you are unimportant. Even if I am miles away, it doesn't mean you are forgotten. Even if I stand alone, it doesn't mean I don't need you by my side. I LOVE YOU, DAD.

Love, Nita in KL."