Saturday, January 29, 2011

I think I seriously need some time for reflection.

Too many things are happening at once, and I don’t know if I have time to really react to any of them. There are two things on the personal front, and work has been a never ending battle. In fact, just finished my evaluation few days back, and the response has not been encouraging. Nonetheless, I firmly believe it’s just a stepping stone to something better, and with more months into the job, I will be able to make a better job of it.

Personally, it’s been turmoil of thoughts and feelings. Too many bad thoughts circulating around, that it’s hard to put a handle on it, and as a result, it drowns out the good things.
Ah boy says it’s cos I’m too possessive over my friendships. And thinking about it, I guess he’s right. But when you’re in different circles with them for so long, when these two circles finally meet to form a Venn diagram and you’re in the intersection, you’ll naturally find it hard to adapt to the new environment, and reality.

I’m afraid my friendships are evolving too fast for me to handle, and I don’t want to be there when the moment comes for it to end.

Was talking to ah boy last night and he mentioned Parmenie. For him, it’s Singapore. For me, I don’t know yet. And that thought led me to scramble awhile, thinking if I have gone wrong somewhere and not have a Parmenie to go to. But after thinking about it, I guess sometimes some people find their Parmenie later in life. So, while I have yet to find my Parmenie, I’m still young, and am sure that I definitely will find mine one day soon. Lol for now, it’s that special room in SFX ;p

Cos I need time, my heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I’m still healing, just try, and have a little patience

Turning 25 in two weeks, but I still feel like a child :/

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Hello 2011 :)

So, the new year 2011 has come. A little late for this post, but what the heck.

The month of January is almost gone, only 6 days left to go.

I realised that I have not really sat down and thought about what I want to achieve in 2011. I look back at my 2010 resolutions, and I see that I have three. Three very simple ones. But three hard to achieve nonetheless ;p

So, my 2010 resolutions:

1. Tough it out at work – lol…failed this, since I had a career change :p
2. Get that bit of courage to speak up and hopefully gain happiness – well, speak up I did, and nothing changed. Oh well, at least I plucked up that courage, and while it wasn’t what I hoped it would be, I’m glad that we’re still friends (still quite close la, I think), and this will be behind us, a closed chapter in my book.
3. Putting my priorities in line, LS thingies, work, and everything else in between :) – hmmm…I think I managed this feat, not as successfully, but managed it nonetheless XD

So, two out of three ain’t bad, if I do say so myself ;p

How about resolutions 2011?

1. Once again, putting my priorities in line.
2. Doing better than I am currently, at work
3. Personal KPI, someone over the horizon?
4. Be that leaning shoulder for my loved ones, be their pillar of strength
5. Manage my EQ better

So, have added two more new resolutions to the mix, hope it wouldn’t be too much of a challenge, or a burden, per se.