Sunday, August 28, 2011

So here I am, venting yet again.

I cannot understand how some people who have a good command of English sometimes do not understand what I am saying.

For far too many times already, I have repeatedly made myself clear (apparently not clear enough to him) that there is nothing going on between me and a particular close friend of mine. What he fails to grasp, is the meaning of the word 'nothing'. I mean, seriously, what does the word 'nothing' mean to you?

According to Dictionary.com:

noth·ing
[nuhth-ing] Show IPA
noun
1.no thing; not anything; naught: to say nothing.
2.no part, share, or trace (usually followed by of ): The house showed nothing of its former magnificence.
3.something that is nonexistent.
4.nonexistence; nothingness: The sound faded to nothing.
5.something or someone of no importance or significance: Money is nothing when you're without health.

So, I'm particularly drawn to meaning number 3. Nothing means, it is nonexistent!!! I mean, come on la. Can you stop making this such a big issue and take a break?

You want us to tell you things that are going on in our lives, but you cast aside the IMPORTANT things we tell you, and latch on to the INSIGNIFICANT.

This is not the first time and circumstance something like this has happened. It's just too many times to count, and I am tired of always having to tiptoe around you, and how you will complain to others, but never to the actual recipient itself. Are you hoping that other parties will tell the intended person? If that is the case, then doesn't it make you look like a coward that you need other people to be the messenger? AND when the person in question CONFRONTS you about it, you act dumb, and pretend that it wasn't you that mentioned it.


Bah. Why am I even bothering? -.-"

Thursday, August 25, 2011


The first statement is not true.

Why? Because the Saggitarius, Aries, and Pisces that I know, are the most selfless and caring people.


The Aquarius bit I agree with wholeheartedly :D

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Project 7, Day 7

I made it! :) so now to continue on to project 14 :)

My two teddys that I love to bits and hug every night

Monday, August 15, 2011

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Project 7,Day 5

Top Glove's car sticker :) notice anything?? ;p
It's a comfort to know that when you're under emotional duress, there are people there who will be willing to listen to your problems.

I unloaded some personal issues with a very good friend today, and it was uplifting to know that he could get what I was talking about. Even when I fell silent and just looked at him, I could see that he understood what I was saying.

We shared a moment, when we laid everything bare on the table, and it was a weight off my shoulders.

Thanks :) You know who you are

But tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the Milky Way
To see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated?

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there?


When he told me what he did, I felt a loss, because we were going along so well, and I could genuinely feel the compatibility between us. But, I couldn't fault him, because I know that if the same thing were to happen to me, I would react in the same way.

So, today is the first day we didn't talk to each other

Oh well :/

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Project 7,Day 4

Deep discussions on the direction of our social responsibility..
Back to square one

:(

Project 7, Day 3

Two guys amusing themselves during FT2 :p

Give these two people ANYTHING and they will amuse themselves with it.

Without fail ;p

Friday, August 12, 2011

Sometimes I just don't get it.

Here I was, happily trundling along with my life. Doing ok at work, building friendships with others, patting myself on the back for a few personal achievements, getting back on the horse on personal relationships, all those not too bad stuff.

Then someone totally unexpected decides to come along, and sweep me off my feet. Even after learning of his past, I decided it was worth knowing him, because of the camaraderie I felt when I talk to him. After all, everyone needs the benefit of the doubt.

There was non-stop bbm-ing, with a little bit of teasing thrown in here and there, and innuendoes of hinting at something that might realise. It was all too good to be true. It was all those stuff you hear of something special forming, and it was happening to me. I guess I spoke too soon.

I still cannot fathom how some people equate all relationships with marriage. I mean, sure, when you've been in a relationship long enough to realise that this is the person you wana spend the rest of your life with, then yes, it does end up in marriage. BUT not all relationships start out that way. Most relationships start out with both persons liking each other, and getting to know each other, and seeing where it goes from there. In an ideal world, yes, it all ends in marriage, but we have to realise that we are living in a far from ideal world.

I was talking to my close friend this afternoon about how I fear that if I get into this relationship, being at the age that I am at right now, I would have to think about marriage soon. She consequently proceeded to knock me on the head *virtually* and told me to enjoy the moment, and take it one day at a time. Flirt, go out on dates, maybe go steady, and see where we go from there. We are still too young to be worrying about marriage. I concur.

After giving it some thought, I think it makes alot of sense. Why wana worry about something that might, or might not come in the future? As Jeremy Schwartz would put it, "Live every day as if it were your last". I mean, seriously, being in your mid twenties doesn't mean marriage is the immediate precedent in your mind. I still need to build up my career, go for my dreams, fulfill what I have set out to do. I guess all this talk about marrying early is the wiring in the brain since time immemorial. And it didn't help matters that everywhere I turn, all my friends are getting married -.-"

Final thought before bed, I think you are playing tricks on me. You introduced me to someone I could talk to, someone I felt I might be able to connect to, and you made it not happen, again.

But, maybe it might. Only time will tell.

Project 7, Day 2

Still considered? Lol, not asleep yet,so I'll bend the rules a little..

Today was Tammy's birthday,so we threw her a surprise party,with Karaoke and bought her the perfume she loved so much :)

Xoxo Tammy, happy birthday from all of us at Esente!! :)

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Project 7, Day 1

Sd, adakah anda menyahut cabaran? ;p

Having dessert with SRYY :)

I have an awesome sister!

My super adorable sister and me!! :p

*update* just for the record, I didn't post this :p

Monday, August 08, 2011

Where You Lead - Carole King

Currently watching the complete Gilmore Girls series...and loving their opening song :)

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Loving you the way I do
I only wanna be with you
And I will go
To the ends of the earth,
Cause darling, to me thats what you're worth

Chorus
Where you lead
I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, if you need me to be with you
I will follow
Where you lead

If you're out on the road
Feelin' lonely and so cold
All you have to do is call my name
And I'll be there
On the next train

Chorus

I always wanted a real home
With flowers on the windowsill
But if you wanna live in New York City
Honey, you know I will

I never thought I could get satisfaction
From just one man
But if anyone can keep me happy
You're the one who can

Chorus (2x)

Oh baby, ohh, I'm gonna follow where you lead
I'm gonna follow where you lead
I'm gonna follow where you lead
I'm gonna follow where you lead
I'm gonna follow where you lead