Sunday, July 18, 2010

I just realised my posts lately all thinking and introspective

Jadi mesti have something happy once in a while :p

So, I have decided to say this:

Thank you for being there for me :) even though you're far away, you have been my pillar of sorts, even while in f6 :p it's hard to imagine that we've known each other since primary 5, and only gotten closer in f6 :p what a funny turn life takes us around sometimes aye? Now we're both working, but we still manage to keep that close bond, and that is something I'm thankful for every single day. I know that when I need you, you'll be there. And rest assured that when you need me, I'll be there too. Even if it means flying all the way back to Kuching :)

Thank you for being you. Though we've never been close in secondary school, but the memories in f6 that we've made together still stays in my mind. I still remember the times we studied at the Brothers' Quarters, where we shared our 'tong hua' stories, where we consoled each other when the other was hurting. We made it through University together, and til now, we're still as close as before. It's a wonder how distance didn't manage to separate us like how it did to some of our friends..Sure, we had our misunderstandings, but I'm glad we managed to get through it, and remained as strong as before.

Thank you for everything. Though you left Kch to study in KL when the rest of us were in Kch, I'm happy the bond has never been broken. Though we only managed to see you a few times when you came back, we still managed to keep that link, and I'm glad for that. Though now you're back in Kch, and I'm here in KL, I hope we can still hold on to that link, cos I don't want to lose you as a friend. The times we shared and the memories we made are still etched in my mind, and sometimes I revisit them and long for the times when we were all still together. But remember when you do come to KL again, look me up!! I don't want to lose that bond.

Thank you for listening. Though sometimes I know it's hard for you as you have your own problems too, I feel really grateful that in my times when I needed someone to talk to, you were there. I love the times when we can chat about deep stuff, because there's not many people that understand me that way the way you do. That's one of the reasons why I love hanging out with you, because you make me comfortable to just be me, and not someone others perceive me to be. I just want you to know that when you need someone to be your listening ear, I'm here, always.

Thank you for understanding. Though it's only been a short while that we've known each other, I never regretted the decision for sharing with you some of my thoughts. Though you're younger than me, you have the maturity of someone older, and that is a big compliment coming from me, because I know other people your age, and their thinking doesn't even come close. You've been there for some of my highs, and lows as well. I know I can count on you when I need someone, and you know you can count on me too.

Thank you for picking me. You showed me that even though we come from different backgrounds, we can still understand each other, and by sharing with me your innermost thoughts, it showed me that you trust me enough to give me that and that I wouldn't break that fragile bond. I'm there for you, through your thick and thins, and I sincerely wish and hope that you can achieve what you set out to do, and that in the future, your waiting will pay off, because you're an amazing person.

Thank you for sharing with me. I know it's hard because there are some things that I might not be able to comprehend, always know that I'm there for you. You know you can count on me, and I will still be here no matter what. Even after you've pushed me away, I'll come bouncing back, kinda like that Japanese bouncing doll :p

Thank you for all the quarrels. Lol...I know, it's hard to live with someone who's so hard on you, even when we were back in Kch. But now we're both in KL, and you're starting on a new journey on your own, remember that I'm here and that you can come stay with us anytime, because that's what family is for. To give you a place to stay even when we are irritated by :p but it's been a joy (though sometimes maybe not) to watch you grow up, and to become the girl (no you're not a woman yet) that you currently are. I actually miss the times when we were back in Kuching and you would yell at me cos the room is messy :p But I still clean it up ma..and my room in KL is now much neater :p

Thank you for putting up with me. I know I can be a pain sometimes, and don't listen when I'm too preoccupied with my work or computer, but always know that for what it's worth, there's no one else I want for an elder sibling than you. Yes, I know I can be overbearing sometimes, and push you all the way to the limit, but I'm just testing waters lah :p know I still love you, even when I get frustrated cos you're being too particular about some things :p

Thank you for having me. Without both of you, I don't know whose child I would be. I wouldn't have experienced a great childhood, and wouldn't miss you both so very much right now. I'm at the crossroads in my life where I need to make big decisions, and I'm just glad that you're both there. Though I seldom call, it doesn't mean that I love you both less, or that I don't think of you. Because I do. And no words can describe how that makes me feel. I hope that my next decision can make you both proud of me :) I'll always be your little girl no matter how old I get ^^


Lol, it doesn't seem like a happy post..haha..tapi, I was smiling when I typed this, so if it's happy for me, then it's a happy post :) Each paragraph is for someone important in my life at this point in time, and though no names are mentioned, you know who you are ;)

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