Wednesday, March 02, 2011

I've heard it said, that people come into our lives
For a reason, bringing something we must learn
And we are led to those who help us most to grow
If we let them and we help them in return

Have you ever felt that you're like a ship, drifting with the waves, going where the currents take you, without a clear objective or goal to move towards?

You're like, directionless, going day by day, not sure where you moving to..

I used to think that I know what I want. I used to think that I am working towards my goal, and with the right amount of perseverance, I will get there one day.

And things changed. Things happened that made me rethink. People entered my life, people stayed, and people left. Thoughts crept in, and I started to question.

Do I really want to remain in a place of my life that I will remain stagnant in? How about my own personal growth?

So, some time to reflect...

What if he's an angel sent here from heaven
and he's making certain that you're doing your best,
To take the time to help one another,
Brother are you gonna pass that test,
You could go on with you day to day
Trying to forget what you saw in his face,
Knowing deep down you could have been her saving grace
What if he's an angel?

Actually, there are many options open to me. There are many other roads I can go down, but all of them needs to sit and simmer for awhile. They need to brew, so they can be strong, and when I'm ready, one day I will pick them up and pour all of it out on to the table, and decide which option is best, and if that's the road I'm gonna finally take.

But not now.

There are other things to think about.

Some of them important, some not so important. Some made me question, and some I couldn't even be bothered.

I have always asked myself, is this really worth it? Am I really going on the right track?

I don't want to stay somewhere where I will become more pessimistic by the day, and turn into a negative person altogether.

What are words
if you really don't mean them when you say them?
What are words
If they're only for good times, then they don't?
When it's love
yeah you say them out loud
Those words, they never go away.
They live on, even when we're gone

So here's a question for ya.

What do you do when the person you needed to talk to most doesn't even seem to have the time for you? Or maybe that person does, but it's not for you?

The answer is obvious. Make that person the person you need least.


But it's not that easy, is it?

But, I guess I should be happy, cos there's finally someone else.

But I'm not, cos it means there's no more room for me.

It means, no more meetings just with me.

It means, no more sharings just with me.

It means, nothing.

Except a normal friendship.

But who am I kidding? I was never special in the first place.

PS: This blog is going private soon...not sure when, but soon

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