Thursday, May 12, 2011

I Won't Let Go - Rascall Flatts

It’s like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that
You think you're lost
But you're not lost
On your own
You're not alone

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
And you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it’s dark
This part of life
Oh, it finds us all
And we’re too small
To stop the rain
Oh, but when it rains


Don’t be afraid to fall
I’m right here to catch you
I won't let you down
It won't get you down
You're gonna make it
Yeah, I know you can make it


Oh I’m gonna hold you
And I won't let go
Won't let you go
No, I won't


Sometimes I think this is what God wants us to know, that He is there for us, He will catch us when we fall, and no matter what, He won't let us go.

But having said that, how easy it is for us to shut him out of our lives, or only turn to Him when we need Him.

There's been a spat of drama at work recently, and not all of it centered on me (thank goodness). However, some of it DOES have to do with me, and I find it hard to cope. It's not that I do not like the job. I love it. But I think it is the burden of things getting to me.

Much as I hate to admit it, I think I'm sliding, and I feel that though I try my hardest, it seems like I'm not giving my all, it feels like I'm not giving enough to my work.

How does it feel to stay up til 4am for the past few weeks, trying to get the job done, even coming in on off-days, not being able to take a break, and even after trying to take one, work comes back faster and harder?

The worse thing is, it's these little things happening that I should have known better. It's these little things that I should have learnt from before, but happens again. Am I not hardworking enough? Am I not trying my best? If I am, then why is all this still happening? If I am, then why does it repeat itself?

Perhaps it's the fatigue getting to me, but I can't afford to take a rest. I can't afford to take even one day off. Through ALL my past experiences working here, everytime I try to give myself a little slack, something BIG and BAD happens. EVERY SINGLE TIME.

So what does it mean?

Am I not supposed to work here?


mrronnieteo said...

Wah, are things as bad as that??

Personally I think that you guys are taking on too much with not enough staff. Nobody should be working as hard as that. And its not that you don't like the work, just the workload. Its come to a point when it becomes unbearable. I know, I get it too! But luckily we hired more people so the burden is shared. So, its not too bad.

Dunno la babe, maybe my advice is not all that correct lar, all I can say is do your best, but after a timeframe, you just gotta shut down "work mode" and just leave it be. Give more time to yourself and focus on yourself.

choulyin.tan said...

thanks dear :) lol abit late to have seen your comment, but thanks for the vote of encouragement ^^